Help For Abusive Parents?

I was encouraged by the swimming lessons abuser, so I'll post up here. Is there a way for abusive (or leaning hard towards abusive tendencies) to get ACTUAL help, instead of someone just turning them into CPS?Background: I was subjected to physical abuse until I was 20 at the hands of my father. He's a clingy control freak and I've told him to back off more than once since having kids. He'll demand to know my whereabouts, call and leave 10 voicemails, starting with concerned and upgrading to threatening. My mother is somehow worse, she has extreme anger issues. She will inexplicably pick something she hates and run it into the ground. She's threatened to hang one of my dogs because "that's a bad dog" (she has one she likes, greets, and loves on, varies among the others which is bad that week). She constantly tells my younger son he deserves to eat his teeth, and spoils my older son, even if he is being a sass mouth brat and the younger is being sweet and conscientious.Here's my problem (other than that I should have moved to a different continent and lost both their phone numbers): I did not have any positive modeling. My husband also came from a broken home, though not as violent as mine, and his parents are extremely detached. I have sought counseling recently to help my anger issues and 1) been given tranquilizers 2) been told BY THE COUNSELOR that if I admitted to striking or wanting to strike my children with anything other than an open hand on a buttock that she would have to report me to CPS. So how do I get help? I went through anger management twice as a teen...to no avail. You cannot count to ten while your head is on fire. I fear what could happen, some days I literally have to send them to a different floor of the house because I feel out of control. Also important: Husband travels nearly nonstop. He has a high-pressure, 100% travel job, so 9 days out of 10, it's just me. via /r/Parenting http://ift.tt/2uxgG8R