I miss the kids.

I never realized how much of a life adjustment it is to even get kids in the first place. I was completely not ready to have custody of my nephews a year ago. Now, I was not completely ready to let them go back to their mom's house. The judge finally ruled my sister fit again and she got her kid's back.It feels so weird not having kids around now. My house is awkwardly quiet. :( I miss the boys around. They kept me on my toes. I got to watch my youngest nephew learn how to write. I got to teach him how to write and read. I got to teach my oldest nephew mathematics and basic algebra. They both for the first time excelled at school.I worry about them now. :( Their mom lives in a very poor area, with a bad school district. The school consistently ranks amongst the bottom performers. This is a drastic change, considering my neighborhood, my nephews were going to some of the best schools. One even had a specialized program for the youngest's autism. They both had a lot of catch up to do to catch up with their grade.I told my sister she can continue using my address to keep the boys in the better school. But she did not want to.I just hope everything goes well. I loved seeing how they developed, how their personalities and tastes developed. For the first time with me, my oldest nephew discovered he liked soccer. The youngest liked hockey. I took them to the games. I got them tutors. Everything.The boys are thrilled to go back to their moms. Tonight, they're with me, because they asked to stay the night. Just like old times, they're in their beds in their rooms.I just. I feel a lot of loss now. I'd hardly get to see them. Their mom doesn't live near me at all.I'm going to miss these tykes. via /r/Parenting http://ift.tt/2uPGwW5