
Hi guys I'm a 23 year old father of the MOST beautiful little girl in the world. Like you see those Gerber babies? They aint got nothin on her :). Shes the best. She is 19 months old, smart little shit, so nice like overly nice. Pretty much everything I've every wanted in life in a little 20 pound bundle of joy.Well I've been battling with opiod addiction the past 4 years about. For those of you who don't know that's pain pills/heroin. I was not on heroin, and not an IV user. But I got pretty deep into it. The past 2 years it's basically consumed my life to the point I can't work or function without them because of withdrawals. I'd wake up and have to hustle money, steal or whatever to get well and be happy.So about 3 months ago I said enough is enough and I moved about a hour and a half away to my adoptive parents where I can't find pills. Well if I really tried I can I'm sure but that's not the point. I've been clean for 3 months.Now all the emotions are flooding back in. I've been a terrible father. I've been so selfish and unfair to my little girl. Taking her with me to pick up drugs and to the pawnshop to sell stolen stuff. I've been a piece of shit. I've never mistreated her but I put fucking pain pills before my own flesh and blood. I'd get well and be the best daddy ever but until I got my pills my only focus was getting my fix.So I had to distance myself from her. Pretty much just from the whole situation. My daughter is more then well taken care of. My birth mom and my sister (who works for childrens services) see to that. they always have because I've been being a child. I see that now.I just wanted some advice. I feel like it was the right thing to do right? That's not fair to her to have half a dad right? I know I'm young but that's no excuse...Thanks guys I know I might of rambled but today I am 96 says clean so almost at 100 :)! It's a start... via /r/Parenting http://ift.tt/2F2v8c1
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