Saturday, 25 March 2017

(Noncustodial Parent) - How do I get used to the airport goodbyes?


A little backstory on this. Me and my daughter's mom dated for a bit, then I broke up with her because I really didn't see myself with her long-term. She calls me 5 months later to say she's pregnant. She decides to keep the baby, I tell her I'm still not going to get back with her. I tell her that me and her are going to be just friends, I'll pay her child support and be involved. The difficulty with being involved though is that I live in New York City and she lives in Texas.So for the first 2-3 years of my daughter's life, I only saw her 10 times because of the difficulty of buying airfare. Either me going to Texas for a weekend or them flying to NYC for the weekend.The past 6 months though, I've had my daughter come over a lot more often and staying a lot longer as well.I just can't deal with the airport goodbyes. For example, tomorrow my ex is flying in from Texas. I'm going to get a gate pass to escort my daughter past security at the airport and then my daughter will get on a plane with my ex headed back to Texas.I literally sit there hugging my daughter, telling her I love her and that I'm going to miss her until the flight attendant says it's time for them to board the plane. Then when my daughter says "daddy are you coming" or "daddy, why are you crying", I fucking lose it. One time I was the one getting on the plane and my daughter saw me crying. She ran past security to give me a teddy kitten that I got for her (that was the fucking worst).Then I sit there at the gate crying until my tear ducts are dry.Anyone else who goes through this, how do you get used to it? via /r/Parenting http://ift.tt/2nRkb7l

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