Meeting my 2 year old daughter for the first time

My ex-wife had borderline personality disorder and I was a victim of her abuse for years. I got into medical school and had just moved across the country with my wife for school when she got pregnant. That's when she blew up and left to go back across the country to our home state. I stayed in school and did not follow, and have not had the financial ability to get a lawyer to help with the inevitably messy divorce and custody process. I'm moving back home when I'm done with school in about 9 months.Fortunately my wife has occasionally let my parents see my daughter. I get photos and updates sometimes. But I've never been able to meet her.Things just happened to work out that I'll be able to finally meet her today. My mom is babysitting and I'm back in my home state for a short time. She's going to sneak off for about an hour and meet me at park with my daughter.It's kind of a confusing thing for me. I have no relationship with my daughter. I barely have an emotional connection with her. I don't know how to interact with her (never really been a kid person, and I'm a very stoic guy). But I do want to be in her life, and like I said, will be moving back home in 9 months.I'm not sure why I'm making this post. I don't have many people to talk with about this. I think I just wanted to vent, and maybe get some advice. I'm nervous, and happy, and sad, and confused. What should I do with her at the park? Should I tell her that I'm her dad? Should I bring her a stuffed animal, toy, or candy? What if the interaction doesn't go well? What if I get sad and start crying? via /r/Parenting https://ift.tt/2M7WtOk