I can't imagine to have a son. He does not care and is due in August.

I never had a man/father figure in my life until I met DH. My grandma was my hero, she was the strongest person I know. I also have a mom and a sister. My 'father ' was infertile and after he divorced my mom (when I was maybe 7, I really don't know) he had no interest in his IVF children. Most of my teachers were woman, definitely the ones who influenced me.DH had quite strange relationship with his dad. He grew up in a patriarchal religious cult, but somehow is the sweetest, most caring and women respecting man I know. Maybe because he was mamas boy and didn't like the way she was treated.3 years ago we've got our DD. To parent her felt so natural. I grew up surrounded by women, I know how to help her, I can relate to her, I know how to support her. I always wanted a girl.Few months ago someone asked on reddit how to deal with his wife who was upset about expecting a boy for weeks and he didn't know how to deal with it anymore. In comments people mentioned that it is a thing, to be disappointed when the baby has the "wrong" gender. I started to worry about my reaction if my baby should be a boy. When we had the checkup my doctor did not see properly, but said it could be a boy. She also could not see if the heart developed as it should, so we needed to go to a specialist. After that scared the hell out of us, I was very happy to have a healthy baby boy. Than I also started to bleed and had to stay in bed for a week. All this made me just thankful that my baby boy is healthy (26 week pregnant now).At this point I'm looking forward to have him, to hold him, cuddle him... Normal mom stuff. I just don't know how to raise him. I don't know how to empower him like I do empower DD. I don't want him to feel less loved. I'm scared I'll fail him.I need some inspiration. If anyone has some good stories, examples, advises I'll be very thankful.Edit: After reading only two replies and feeling stuck when trying to answer them I realized that in my head the problem was like "how do I raise a boy when I want to empower him but don't want him be be a macho". Maybe my problem is not how to avoid toxic masculinity but my own unintentional toxic femininity. It's not like I hate men, I just never met a good one (DH is a big exception). All men I had in my life did let me down. via /r/Parenting http://bit.ly/2ZtUV72