I'm about to make my 21 year old boyfriend an unwilling father because I can't go through with the abortion we agreed on before sex. How do I go about this?

I'm 22 and pregnant despite taking the pill and my boyfriend (we are not super serious though) of 6 months wearing condoms. Even though we agreed that if I were to get pregnant I would get an abortion, I can't bring myself to do it because the mandatory counselling I have to do made me look at the ultra sound and I guess it made me attached and I feel excited for the baby and being a mother. But I am worried because I know he is going to be so upset about it and maybe angry (not that he'd hurt me but he is going to be really upset and maybe say I ruined his life by going back on the agreement).I'm nervous because I heard him talking on the phone to a friend about someone who was in a similar situation a few weeks ago and he said "What a nightmare, honestly, I wouldn't be having sex with [my name] if we both hadn't agreed she'll have an abortion if our birth control fails, it would ruin our fucking lives, god, I'd rather die than have a baby right now".And I will be ruining his life. He has a scholarship to our country's equivalent of Harvard Law School and is moving away for that next year.I don't know what to do.(I know someone will say "he could have got a vasectomy" but like many 22 year olds, he is undecided on whether he wants kids in the future or not so wasn't considering a permanent solution. But he has always been adamant he doesn't want a kid before 30 "either way". And I get it. It was like how I was using the pill but wouldn't have wanted to get my tubes tied you know?). via /r/Parenting https://ift.tt/33MErIl