Bad day

I’ll start by apologising for the formatting as I’m on mobile.My son has just turned 4 (in July), and as much as he is the light of my life, I struggle. I struggle to keep up with him. I struggle with him not listening, myself constantly repeating myself over and over again. I struggle with his 10000 questions, his impatience, and most hours of the day he is 100 per cent full on. Constantly pushing limits, talking back or blatantly ignoring me.I know that’s what 4 year olds are like. I know he’s a kid, and I feel so guilty getting so mad at him. At the end of the day I feel more mad at myself for my actions than I am actually mad at him. I want to be the parent he needs me to be but I feel like I’ve failed. I Just get so frustrated and I don’t know what to do when I get to that point. I hate getting angry at him so much. I hate how I get to the point where I’m shouting. I hate how he’s learnt to shout back. I feel like I’ve hit a brick wall.I guess it hit me today when I asked why he was following me around, and I asked him to find something else to do, like colour in or watch some tv or ride his bike. He just looked at me and said, “because you’re my best friend mum. We’re pals.” Fuck, it hit me like a bullet. This little guy thinks I’m so cool he wants to spend all his time with me.I don’t want to get angry anymore. I want to be a positive parent. via /r/Parenting https://ift.tt/2kMn2yK