I don’t know if I would make a good father because of how I was raised.

Sorry if this isn’t the right sub to put this.I’m 18 years old and I’m not thinking of starting a family right now, but I’m going to be looking after my 3 year old nephew for my older brother when he goes on holiday for a week tomorrow and it got me thinking.When I was a kid I was disciplined very harshly. My father would make me take off all of my clothing and would whip me with a really thick skipping rope thing, a spatula, a rolling pin or his belt. He did this until he “broke” me (me crying and apologising) and would then continue, sometimes whilst mocking me. He did this until I was 16 and left home. The most degrading experience when I hit my teens was him commenting on my size and hair when he made me strip. One time he even came up and made a show of inspecting despite my obvious discomfort. My mother never stood up to my father and he used to make her stay in the room.This didn’t happen all the time, sometimes a few weeks would go by without him doing this, but I don’t think he ever stopped for longer than a month or two. He would also yell at me all the time for things like coughing too loudly, being ten minutes late home from school, leaving a crumb on the kitchen bench accidentally, sneezing whilst he was in the room, etc. and call me names and rant about how worthless I am.This makes me worry... what if I turn into my father? I have heard lots of stories about people turning out like their parents like it’s inevitable. Or vowing not to be like their parents but then they turn out like them anyway. Is there a way I can stop this happening other than wanting it?Also, I found out from my brother that he allows my father to babysit for my nephew unsupervised sometimes and it makes me uneasy, I don’t know what do. I told him that I felt this was inappropriate but he reckons our father won’t do anything because it’s not his kid and he’s “changed his ways.” via /r/Parenting https://ift.tt/2M2nukd