Is it possible to stop loving your own child?

My son is 17, and we are having a very rough time right now due to his behavior. He is doing everything teenagers are known for: talking back, disobeying, bad grades, etc., which can drive any parent to a breaking point. But something is different here, because I feel like his bad behavior (which severely stresses me out and has interrupted my work life tremendously) has made it so that I do not love him anymore, which is something I didn’t think could even happen for a parent that has loved their child for years and years.Some background: I had a traumatic pregnancy and traumatic birth, and I have raised my son on my own, full time, never a day off, since he was born. Due to the trauma issues, I had a tough time bonding with him for the first several weeks. But after those first rough few weeks passed, I began to love him just as much as any parent loves their child.As my son grew older, and as his behavioral problems increased around the age of 12, I started to realize that my love for him was fading. When I found out my son was lying to me (which was a huge part of the trauma issues with the father during the pregnancy) around age 14, I withdrew even more.There is a much longer story here, but the short of it is that I feel like I do not love my son anymore. I have felt like this for several years, and I cannot shake off this feeling. I find myself repeating in my head, over and over, things like “when he is 18 you can move and leave him and start your life over,” or “maybe he will move away and never see you again,” and I feel a sense of relief washing over me.I am genuinely aghast at the idea that I do not love my child any longer. I thought parental love was eternal, and nothing could break that bond. I am at a loss as to how this has happened, and I am seeking advice on how to move forward. via /r/Parenting http://bit.ly/2Xmm22j