My ex and I (together for 10 years) split up about a year ago. We have a 2 year old daughter together that is my everything... She is the most important thing in my life, and everything I do, I do it for her. My ex moved away a few months ago and she gave up some custody of our daughter to do so. I have her 9 out if every 14 days.The reason I'm writing right now is because of an incident that happened not 2 hours ago. I've been working 50-60 hour weeks to make enough money to provide for my daughter and I. We were in the living room on the floor wrestling and watching barnyard. She stopped for a few minutes and the cool breeze and comfortable atmosphere with my daughter cuddling next to me led me to briefly doze off.I woke up to someone at my patio door saying "excuse me". I got up freaking out about someone at my patio door only to see my daughter in her hands.... My stomach dropped, and chest started racing. My 21 month old daughter apparently hooked our golden retriever sized dog up to his leash and decided to take him for a walk while daddy slept....I've been hating myself for the last 2 hours. What could have happened in that time is killing me.... How shit of a parent am I that I let this happen? I love my daughter so very much... And because I do I'm trying to decide if the best thing for her is to not be around me.... Up until this moment I've prided myself on being a solid part of her life... We go to church every sunday we spend a lot of time with cousins and grandparents, we take daddy/daughter gymnastics, we volunteer at church and a local elder care home, we frequent parks, and local events..... I've never let something like this happen.....I have no one to turn to for advice here. Since my ex and I seperated I haven't really had anyone to talk to, and I've spent all of my time raising this amazing little girl..... As much as it kills me to say it....This is the first time I've considered that maybe the best thing for her is to not be near me as much as she is.Any advice is greatly appreciated. via /r/Parenting http://ift.tt/2bEXsGy
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