This post is probably going to contain some whining, I apologize in advance. I'm a new dad, and I work multiple part time jobs (barista, research assistant, adjunct professor) and I'm a graduate student. My wife takes care of our 7 month old, in addition to doing some babysitting. I don't know what else to say except that I don't think I can do it. My wife and I are often angry with one another, and I don't feel like I have the energy to care that she's mad at me anymore (I'm not saying it's her fault, we're both on edge). I'm really struggling keeping up with jobs, grading, lesson planning, my own school work, and I feel like I'm doing everything poorly. I need to work these jobs though so that we will have enough money to get by. I really want to pursue my PhD after I finish my MA, but given how I'm feeling now I'm not sure that I could handle it, or that our marriage would survive. I'm also afraid, though, that if I don't pursue the PhD, that I'll end up resenting my wife/son. I just don't know what to do, so I'm shouting into the internet hoping that something good happens. I guess my questions are, is what I'm experiencing pretty average? Can one be a good parent/husband in addition to trying to pursue what I'm pursuing? Does it get easier or harder? Is it normal to feel awful at this point in life? Any advice/encouragement would be appreciated. via /r/Parenting http://ift.tt/2hQLY33
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